2019.

I was quite happy on what the year had offered me. Despite I still failed in my love life, and how November made me disappointed in certain angle, I managed to meet some friends which we never had the chance to meet for 1-3 years. Some of my friends were married, like Aniesha, Tasha, Asma' and Nailah. And some managed to get their first born baby like Nurul, Aniesha and my cousin. It made me happy to see how they made such progress in their life. Well, as a person who saw people growing from certain life to certain life, of course I tend to make some observations of their progress. Glad that they looked so happy in their life. I hoped they felt content as well. In shaa Allah.

I usually wanted to start writing. I'll try to conclude top 10 things i enjoyed. 2019 was really a joy to me as I:

1. handled an prize giving ceremony for Peraduan Beli dan Menang Bersama OK di Mydin. Gahhhh this opportunity was really a bonus for me. Glad I had the chance and glad all my teammates were helpful as hell!

2. worked extra hours even on public holiday! Not proud but at least can get decent pay at the end of the month so I can buy some stuff. Boleh lah beli skincare mahal sikit kan. Boleh travel. Boleh lah even tengah bulan macam tak cukup duit.

3. belanja my parents flight tickets (which I really wanted my mum to get on plane cause she never had the chance). 

4. met some inspiring people, like my intern, Yusri

5. managed to go travel to certain places with Jia. Explored Penang, Ipoh and went to Pulau Perhentian.

6. joined a lot of activities held by OK like majlis berbuka bersama anak yatim, majlis hari raya where we practiced dancing.

7. had the best moment with Helmi, where we baked until 4am, we went to Pusat Sains Negara, we had birthday celebration around Melaka and so much more. I'm happy we created a lot of memories this year.

8. finally had my Instagram account for stuff i love to do. @aprilsthings. Friends, siblings and relative supported me like Ainul Makngah, and Fadhilah.

9. met few people i didn't meet like 2-3 years. Macam Madie, my cousin Aqila, Nailah, At'tiqah, uni friends, Jaja hehehe love love love!!!

10. planning a business with Jia. Hopefully it works!

Overall, I was happy. Ok nak sambung lagi achievement...

11. Sebab I managed to bayar maintenance kereta like tukar tayar and renew the road tax/insurance. My local car je pun dah costs almost a thousand dengan tukar tayar boleh jadi almost 2k! EE
12. Gahhh on terms of my former job, boleh lah belajar and faham macam mana nak market product pergi listing apa smeua, camne nak buat promotion through in-store/mailer and how to handle a campaign and buat proposal. Boleh lahhh.... I am grateful for that!

13. Then, on December I traveled a lot. And tak sangka still ada kudrat nak drive jauh jauh! I am old for thissss

- On the first week of December, I drove all the way from Melaka-Seri Iskandar. The next day, Seri Iskandar-Kulim-Seri Iskandar-Ipoh-Seri Iskandar. The third day, Seri Iskandar-Shah Alam-Melaka

- Second week, Melaka-Seri Iskandar-Taiping-Melaka in one day!

- Third week, mental breakdown jadi tak drive memana just jumpa Jaja tu pun sebab Syawal advised to do so.

- Fourth week, Melaka-Ipoh-Alor Setar. Next day, Alor Setar-Seri Iskandar-Melaka.

14. Went to an interview on 31st December and I met few persons even I made friends with them and sumpah masa iv tu, semua orang macam power and i felt so little. HAHA. But it's okay, I always trust myself and apa-apa pun serahkan pada Allah. 

I admitted, there were pain and heartbreaks but I survived. I became the old me like uni life. Where I care less, on almost everything around me.

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For 2020. I am so excited in seeing what it offers me.

1. I would avoid from saying I hate/aku tak suka/aku takan bla bla bla cause sooner or later, that thing you dislike will be your best companion.

2. I will learn how to edit videos/photo/designing: Photoshop/AI

3. Travel more: USS and Pulau Kapas hahahhaha why tho Pulau Kapas? idk

4. Show 'em happiness

5. Go to class: Baking/florist/language (Japan/Mandarin)

6. Make Aisyah start selling stuff from Thailand

7. Less cursing, emotional and hot tempered. Be cool fuhhh

8. Become better and baik for Jia

9. Start with a decade goal. And see the achievement. A house, a new car for my parents or Aisyah.

10. Write a lot

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Summary for a decade.

A decade changed us a lot yelah 10 years kan. Taktau lah sebab aku cepat pelupa ye anak-anak so I cannot recall exactly apa aku dah lalui these past 10 years. I need to read my previous blog post or diary kalau nak recall semua. Tapi one thing for sure, I am happy, ada lagi muka muka yang sama. Since sekolah menengah until now! So happy for that. So happy, my family still complete. Despite pemergian yang paling terkesan, my arwah Paksu on 2010, and also my grandma belah ayah on 2017 rasanya, tapi alhamdulillah everyone yang aku sayang masih ada di dunia ini. Bila sekolah and uni, aku selalu dapat apa-apa aku nak. By the time of kerja, baru faham banyak benda ye, ada banyak benda yang aku kena kejar sendiri, perit sikit bila tengok progress kau slow daripada yang lain, but it's okay, slowly but surely kan. Apa-apa pun, I'm glad that sekarang on the year of 2019, I rather not chase stuff yang aku tau akan dapat lambat. Ye! akan dapat harus lah dapat, tapi I rather enjoy every moment while chasing those impian and harapan. Sedekad ini, saya telah pun dilukai oleh beberapa orang, dan saya telah pun berjumpa dengan beberapa orang yang tidak disangka-sangka. Apa pun, kita jangan pernah berhenti berusaha dan jangan mengalah dan kena sentiasa terbuka dengan cabaran baru sebab hidup kita akan lebih evolving ye dengan pelbagai pengalaman! Di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan! dan tiada lagi sedih dan tiada lagi penyesalan okay? WE CAN DO THIS!