# 2019
Tuesday, April 2, 2019 / permalink
First quarter of 2019 has come to end.
There were so many things happened. I wanted to resign from my current job. Cause at first I thought that the pressure is unbearable. With tons of deadlines submissions, events, office tasks and outstations. Day by day, you actually can handle the pressure, but your heart just not there anymore. When your efforts are not appreciated, I no longer came early to work. I no longer interested to work overtime. Sometimes I think I can, but sometime I think I can't. With additional dramas from the surrounding, I am actually tired with all these things. I wish for a new environment with less drama. Maybe I am the one who created the drama, or being over dramatic. I don't know. Hopefully I am the only one who being dramatic. Cause my dramas are just enough, I can't handle any other. Sometimes, I felt like I am the only one who's not working extra hard. Sometimes people just pushing you but not listening to you. Sometimes people make you feel like you're not contributing. I don't know. Maybe it's just my feelings.
End of January, Helmi suddenly opened up about getting married and he was very serious about it. Which I was so happy about that. At first I was sad lah, because he always had choice you know. Then, I was quite blank when he said about getting married. Sebab betul ke this thing coming from his mouth. But turn out dah sampai bulan 4 pun, he was very serious about it. And he was so excited. I hope this excitement is lasting forever. Cause he is my happiness after my families. And I was so happy cause he opened up about us in public. It took a whole lot of courage to reveal this to our family and friends cause we always wanted to keep it low and private. We were quite afraid of rejection from the public or maybe to avoid from offending other people. But I am thankful cause we received huge amount of acceptance from our friends.
Aside from that, I was so grateful cause I my life is better than before. I can see an improvement from previous year. Thankful that I can afford to buy super special birthday presents for my parents. And more to come in shaa Allah.
There were so many things happened. I wanted to resign from my current job. Cause at first I thought that the pressure is unbearable. With tons of deadlines submissions, events, office tasks and outstations. Day by day, you actually can handle the pressure, but your heart just not there anymore. When your efforts are not appreciated, I no longer came early to work. I no longer interested to work overtime. Sometimes I think I can, but sometime I think I can't. With additional dramas from the surrounding, I am actually tired with all these things. I wish for a new environment with less drama. Maybe I am the one who created the drama, or being over dramatic. I don't know. Hopefully I am the only one who being dramatic. Cause my dramas are just enough, I can't handle any other. Sometimes, I felt like I am the only one who's not working extra hard. Sometimes people just pushing you but not listening to you. Sometimes people make you feel like you're not contributing. I don't know. Maybe it's just my feelings.
End of January, Helmi suddenly opened up about getting married and he was very serious about it. Which I was so happy about that. At first I was sad lah, because he always had choice you know. Then, I was quite blank when he said about getting married. Sebab betul ke this thing coming from his mouth. But turn out dah sampai bulan 4 pun, he was very serious about it. And he was so excited. I hope this excitement is lasting forever. Cause he is my happiness after my families. And I was so happy cause he opened up about us in public. It took a whole lot of courage to reveal this to our family and friends cause we always wanted to keep it low and private. We were quite afraid of rejection from the public or maybe to avoid from offending other people. But I am thankful cause we received huge amount of acceptance from our friends.
Aside from that, I was so grateful cause I my life is better than before. I can see an improvement from previous year. Thankful that I can afford to buy super special birthday presents for my parents. And more to come in shaa Allah.
