# SL1M Trainee at Menara Maybank #part2
Wednesday, January 25, 2017 / permalink
Hi!
OMG so happy to be back!
Sooo today i would like to share about my working days. huahahahha. Alhamdulillah now dah 2 months dah at Menara Maybank. At first it was so stressful to be here. Because I was from a small town weh and when I came to KL (a capital city) of course I was quite hating the environment. Lots of cars, dirty air, cars honking everywhere, high living cost (very high esp for my transportation cost), too much people (crowded). Huargh taleh brain. Plus, at the first two weeks, my tasks weren't as much as now, so i felt quite bored. I was homesick. I kept counting days until Friday. I can say my heart was not totally there. Dah lah tu memang out of your background. I wasn't engaged. Probably because of myself. Because I am not friendly and all. So I felt not belong to the company. I was slowly losing all my positivity. There were so many negative thoughts. I was battling with my own self. My future as well. I can say that was hard for me.
Tapi lama lama alhamdulillah. Persepsi kita merubah cara kita mengawal sesuatu perkara/masalah. I asked Syawal how can i overcome this. He might like his job, so he can handle his life there. Being away from his parents. I was totally lost. I can say he helped me to ease my pain. His advice was simple, "betulkan niat". As I'm searching for positivity, so yes I listened to him. I betulkan niat. Swear this is real story, to every steps I take, I recite al-Fatihah and ayatul Kursi while I try to set my own intention. I said to my heart, "this is not for me, but this is for my parents and this is for Allah". I repeated that every day even until now. Alhamdulillah slowly it takes away my pain. Yelah at this point redha and ikhlas are the only thing that can save me. Everything's getting better and I'm slowly getting engaged with this job. Sometimes rindu to be back to office. Sometimes I miss my manager even we not talking too much pun.
At the same time, I changed my perceptions. I need to set my mind to beautiful things. I see beautiful things at this crowded city. I see kindness among the people. Sometimes orang tumpangkan payung bila hujan. Orang bersedekah ramai. I see people who is less fortunate and I should be grateful to all the opportunities I had. I'm slowly in love. Perceptions really help in changing how we see our problems. If we choose to look at the positive sides, in shaa Allah it'll be beautiful. We gonna see beautiful things.
Then, yes in order to fix my surrounding, I need to fix myself first. Yeap. I'm slowly fixing myself. I try to be friendly, I talk to people slowly. I can say perangai dulu yang macam benci gila pandang orang tu dah slowly hilang ah. Perangai yang macam menyampah je kat orang. Perangai yang macam kalau boleh I wanna live my own life. I am more towards contributing to people (sikit). I read certain articles on self-improving. Like how to deal with habits and our own personality. Yes I choose to change myself rather than blaming people for the damages. And now i'm still trying. Trying to improve on being less selfish. Now, I realized how stupid I was for not trying to speak. For not taking chances to get to know people. I think I don't wanna repeat that unless I'm not in mood.
Apa apa pun, Alhamdulillah, my pain slowly heals. I'm in peace. For now.
Here in Menara Maybank, I've been placed under SME BB funding and deposits. Alhamdulillah. My colleagues help me a lot in terms of completing my task. They willingly to teach and help me as long as I'm asking. They're extremely busy tapi alhamdulillah they guided me. I am not going to share specifically my tasks because everyone has different tasks and I think you know better when you start working here. It's about banking industry for sure. Hahahahha. I think it's P&C.
Okay back to tadi. Alhamdulillah. Slowly I'm in love with things I think I cannot. Yelah benda baru and memang bukan otak numbers pun. Tapi at least dah ada lah suka tu even sikit (slowly progressing). If you have problems in dealing with new things (macam saya) yes I advice you, to give a try. Try, then you decide whether you can go on or not. Eg: I tried to accept this fact that I'm working in banking industry because I have no other choice, plus I wanna avoid being demanding since I'm still new. So I try to grab this opportunity with a big hope to learn and gain experience as much as I can. Tadaaa! from terpaksa dah jadi suka, okay what? even not highly interested (but at least I'm trying and I hope as the time goes by, I'll be happier). I met new friends and I can say I'm expanding my zone. Takda yang merugikan masa ke buang masa ke apa. Believe that semua akan jadi great experience. Experience tu mahal tau. So, no! tak buang masa okay? Don't waste your effort yang try tu semua, untuk cakap tu semua tak datang apa apa. Like whuuut?
At first try not to say, "alaaa this one is not my minat, this one is not my background etc". I was at first saying those. Afraid of trying new things or what I can say afraid of expanding my zone. Cam rather stay at the same spot, comfort zone. Yelah from Bachelor of Administrative Science where I learnt theoretically regarding how Government works, tetiba tukar something in banking kan. Hahahahhahahahah. There's a lot of numbers! even you not counting them manually tapi you dealing with numbers lah I can say. Now kerja agak banyak. Banyak yang sampai sometimes tinggal aku sorang je kat office. lol. Mungkin sebab aku jenis tanak tangguhkan kerja yang boleh settle asap. So I rather stay. Nasib tak selalu stay back. Hahahahaha. Tapi takpa I take that as life experience and achievement.
Gahhh alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah sangat I passed thru that. Anyone who's battling on the same thing, terpaksa buat sesuatu yang kau tak suka, try betulkan niat, change your perceptions and yes fix yourself. Apa-apa pun it depends on yourself jugak, how you cater your problems. I wish you all the best and as I survived that phase, I know you can also survive.
There's a lot to explore out there
Don't missed out any chances or opportunities
Go and grab em fast
Love, quderleena.
--
Hey! Missed out the first entry? Click here for SL1M Trainee at Menara Maybank #part1
Wanna know the last entry? Click here for #Part3
OMG so happy to be back!
Sooo today i would like to share about my working days. huahahahha. Alhamdulillah now dah 2 months dah at Menara Maybank. At first it was so stressful to be here. Because I was from a small town weh and when I came to KL (a capital city) of course I was quite hating the environment. Lots of cars, dirty air, cars honking everywhere, high living cost (very high esp for my transportation cost), too much people (crowded). Huargh taleh brain. Plus, at the first two weeks, my tasks weren't as much as now, so i felt quite bored. I was homesick. I kept counting days until Friday. I can say my heart was not totally there. Dah lah tu memang out of your background. I wasn't engaged. Probably because of myself. Because I am not friendly and all. So I felt not belong to the company. I was slowly losing all my positivity. There were so many negative thoughts. I was battling with my own self. My future as well. I can say that was hard for me.
Tapi lama lama alhamdulillah. Persepsi kita merubah cara kita mengawal sesuatu perkara/masalah. I asked Syawal how can i overcome this. He might like his job, so he can handle his life there. Being away from his parents. I was totally lost. I can say he helped me to ease my pain. His advice was simple, "betulkan niat". As I'm searching for positivity, so yes I listened to him. I betulkan niat. Swear this is real story, to every steps I take, I recite al-Fatihah and ayatul Kursi while I try to set my own intention. I said to my heart, "this is not for me, but this is for my parents and this is for Allah". I repeated that every day even until now. Alhamdulillah slowly it takes away my pain. Yelah at this point redha and ikhlas are the only thing that can save me. Everything's getting better and I'm slowly getting engaged with this job. Sometimes rindu to be back to office. Sometimes I miss my manager even we not talking too much pun.
At the same time, I changed my perceptions. I need to set my mind to beautiful things. I see beautiful things at this crowded city. I see kindness among the people. Sometimes orang tumpangkan payung bila hujan. Orang bersedekah ramai. I see people who is less fortunate and I should be grateful to all the opportunities I had. I'm slowly in love. Perceptions really help in changing how we see our problems. If we choose to look at the positive sides, in shaa Allah it'll be beautiful. We gonna see beautiful things.
Then, yes in order to fix my surrounding, I need to fix myself first. Yeap. I'm slowly fixing myself. I try to be friendly, I talk to people slowly. I can say perangai dulu yang macam benci gila pandang orang tu dah slowly hilang ah. Perangai yang macam menyampah je kat orang. Perangai yang macam kalau boleh I wanna live my own life. I am more towards contributing to people (sikit). I read certain articles on self-improving. Like how to deal with habits and our own personality. Yes I choose to change myself rather than blaming people for the damages. And now i'm still trying. Trying to improve on being less selfish. Now, I realized how stupid I was for not trying to speak. For not taking chances to get to know people. I think I don't wanna repeat that unless I'm not in mood.
Apa apa pun, Alhamdulillah, my pain slowly heals. I'm in peace. For now.
Here in Menara Maybank, I've been placed under SME BB funding and deposits. Alhamdulillah. My colleagues help me a lot in terms of completing my task. They willingly to teach and help me as long as I'm asking. They're extremely busy tapi alhamdulillah they guided me. I am not going to share specifically my tasks because everyone has different tasks and I think you know better when you start working here. It's about banking industry for sure. Hahahahha. I think it's P&C.
Okay back to tadi. Alhamdulillah. Slowly I'm in love with things I think I cannot. Yelah benda baru and memang bukan otak numbers pun. Tapi at least dah ada lah suka tu even sikit (slowly progressing). If you have problems in dealing with new things (macam saya) yes I advice you, to give a try. Try, then you decide whether you can go on or not. Eg: I tried to accept this fact that I'm working in banking industry because I have no other choice, plus I wanna avoid being demanding since I'm still new. So I try to grab this opportunity with a big hope to learn and gain experience as much as I can. Tadaaa! from terpaksa dah jadi suka, okay what? even not highly interested (but at least I'm trying and I hope as the time goes by, I'll be happier). I met new friends and I can say I'm expanding my zone. Takda yang merugikan masa ke buang masa ke apa. Believe that semua akan jadi great experience. Experience tu mahal tau. So, no! tak buang masa okay? Don't waste your effort yang try tu semua, untuk cakap tu semua tak datang apa apa. Like whuuut?
At first try not to say, "alaaa this one is not my minat, this one is not my background etc". I was at first saying those. Afraid of trying new things or what I can say afraid of expanding my zone. Cam rather stay at the same spot, comfort zone. Yelah from Bachelor of Administrative Science where I learnt theoretically regarding how Government works, tetiba tukar something in banking kan. Hahahahhahahahah. There's a lot of numbers! even you not counting them manually tapi you dealing with numbers lah I can say. Now kerja agak banyak. Banyak yang sampai sometimes tinggal aku sorang je kat office. lol. Mungkin sebab aku jenis tanak tangguhkan kerja yang boleh settle asap. So I rather stay. Nasib tak selalu stay back. Hahahahaha. Tapi takpa I take that as life experience and achievement.
Gahhh alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah sangat I passed thru that. Anyone who's battling on the same thing, terpaksa buat sesuatu yang kau tak suka, try betulkan niat, change your perceptions and yes fix yourself. Apa-apa pun it depends on yourself jugak, how you cater your problems. I wish you all the best and as I survived that phase, I know you can also survive.
There's a lot to explore out there
Don't missed out any chances or opportunities
Go and grab em fast
Love, quderleena.
--
Hey! Missed out the first entry? Click here for SL1M Trainee at Menara Maybank #part1
Wanna know the last entry? Click here for #Part3
