# toxic
Monday, March 7, 2016 / permalink
haluu hiii
assalamulaikum
so regarding today's topic i would like to talk about ...... stay away from negativity
alright.
first of all, aku nak cerita pasal ni sebab right now, i feel so happy. happy and lega and rasa cam aku buat keputusan yg betul baru baru ni. like selalunya apa aku buat if its contradict with my instinct and apa yang hati aku nak, selalunya akan ended up aku yg kecewa, emo, koyak, rabak and memacam ah. after several lessons then i know i should trust my instinct, my guts, my kata hati then only it will be okay. dont just ikut perasaan je sebab bila ikut perasaan kita actually tak fikir kewarasan akal. sometimes even waras pun kita sebenarnya tak fikir masak masak.
weh tapi berpada pada lah. ikut hati tu bukan lah ikut benda yg tak betul. lol.
okay actually, aku pernah je hati aku kata no tak betul tu, but then aku like tak dengar that NO then aku buat jugak so yah ended up tulah jadinya. i lost eveything. i ruined everything. (banyak kali dah kena) ended up aku regret tp actually from mistakes lah kita belajar something baru kan?
now i know aku tak boleh jadi orang yg berharap kat orang, kena independent, try buat semua, jadi kuat and jaga perasaan sendiri, dont let other people hurt u, and dont easily letak kepercayaan pada orang, trust the one yg sememangnya takan kecewakan kau.
alright back to ikut kata hati, baru baru ni aku pun ikut kata hati yg memang bebetul hati cakap NO then aku straight say NO. actually, the straight no tu tipu je. along the way to say no tu, ada lah berapa kali tewas (ikut perasaan lah tu). sometimes i just cant resist (ikut perasaan sebab kalau rasa sayang semua kita boleh bagi) and i yes made a mistake. and i repeat the same thing all over again.
actually, it takes time. bila hati kau dah tahu kau tanak then u try lah slowly buang benda yg kau tanak, try to avoid, make a final decision, sebenarnya memang sangat susah, tp tatau lah i believe the Lord knows apa yg ada dalam hati kita and kita selalunya lemah in terms of terus berubah but then He helps me. He slowly tolong up until now. alhamdulillah even tak permudahkan tp at the end tuhan tolong juga. finally semua jadi senang / dipermudahkan. tapi tatau this time when dah lama lama ni baru like aku nampak sebenarnya betul keputusan aku. now rasa lebih tenang. no tears. no hatred. nothing. cam everything back to normal and im more likely to berserah lah pada Allah nak jadi apa kan because now aku dah follow dah my heart. hati aku kata tanak. alhamdulillah. biggest alhamdulillah.
-its just for the mistake i did, i hope that Allah would forgive me): i'll try my best):
okay now. the topic is actually about why u need to stay away from negativity.
you know, when ur heart says something sebenarnya aku yakin benda tu guide kita through something bigger. so when it says WRONG. or NO. then just follow. dont force yourself nak ikut orang lain, nak bahagiakan orang lain, nak bagi semua benda yg boleh bahagiakan orang, nak puaskan hati orang but at the same time hati kau cakap "benda ni tak betul doh" "jangan doh" "ni salah doh" juuuuuuuuuust try lah sometimes percaya. u know what's right and what's wrong. so percaya bila hati kau kata TAK. dont lah like yolo ke apa because im afraid it will lead u to something else. mungkin yes u kena keluar from comfort zone, try and learn new things, discover and explore,.. of course u can but at the same time jaga lah. dont like kau rasa benda tu dah terang terang salah, dah terang terang berdosa yg kau belajar dari kecik, dah sah sah buat parents kecewa, and then kau pun ada pendirian sendiri yg benda tu tak betul but then kau buat jugak kan. (aku cakap pasal diri sendiri). benda tu sebenarnya toxic.
to me negativity ni ada wide and broad definition and opinion memasing. pada aku, avoid negativity bukan actually avoid orang yg ada masalah sosial ke gejala negatif ke apa atau something benda ke apa. in my opinion, stay away from negativity ni actually benda yg halang kau drpd happy. yg bila kau buat kau rasa cam takda datang apa apa, buat kau stress, buat kau tak happy, tak fun, rasa tak betul and rasa bersalah camtu lah lebih kurang. (just my opinion) like toxic.
kita ada kawan yg betul. baik budi pekertinya. menegur kita segala macam hal. guide kita. alhamdulillah. haha;
kita ada kawan yg tak betul, tapi dia tak pernah buat benda yg salah kat kita, dia tolong kita, dia support kita, dia faham kita;
kita ada juga kawan. yang tak betul tapi sama sama tak betul dgn kita, tapi kita rasa lek je sebab kita rasa benda tu ok boleh diterima lagi;
kita ada juga kawan. yang dah lah tak betul, lepas tu paksa kita buat benda tak betul yang memang truly kita tanak buat pun, tapi kita ikutkan sebab kita nak jaga hati kawan, tapi ended up dorong benda lain, lepas tu condemn apa kita buat salah dia betul, tanak faham, lepas tu selfish, lepas tu tanak hargai pula, lepas tu tak support, lepas tu tak respect, lepas tu kita mula lah rasa sedih lah, sentap lah, terasa lah, rasa kecik sangat lah, rasa apa lah semua benda lah sebab contradict. THIS IS ACTUALLY NEGATIVITY. that feeling. u need to get rid of this toxic. that feeling yg buat kau rasa sekecil kecil alam yang kau sebenarnya boleh buat better than tu. when at first u dah rasa benda tu tak betul, benda tu takan jadi betul just try once believe and avoid or get rid of this negativity bila u dah get into it.
because this is the key of ur happiness.
so yah. that's my 10 cent advice. need to stop writing. sorry if ada terasa or apa. this is so nothing to do with orang dah hidup atau meninggal dunia. off. [lunch hour dah. bye]
assalamulaikum
so regarding today's topic i would like to talk about ...... stay away from negativity
alright.
first of all, aku nak cerita pasal ni sebab right now, i feel so happy. happy and lega and rasa cam aku buat keputusan yg betul baru baru ni. like selalunya apa aku buat if its contradict with my instinct and apa yang hati aku nak, selalunya akan ended up aku yg kecewa, emo, koyak, rabak and memacam ah. after several lessons then i know i should trust my instinct, my guts, my kata hati then only it will be okay. dont just ikut perasaan je sebab bila ikut perasaan kita actually tak fikir kewarasan akal. sometimes even waras pun kita sebenarnya tak fikir masak masak.
weh tapi berpada pada lah. ikut hati tu bukan lah ikut benda yg tak betul. lol.
okay actually, aku pernah je hati aku kata no tak betul tu, but then aku like tak dengar that NO then aku buat jugak so yah ended up tulah jadinya. i lost eveything. i ruined everything. (banyak kali dah kena) ended up aku regret tp actually from mistakes lah kita belajar something baru kan?
now i know aku tak boleh jadi orang yg berharap kat orang, kena independent, try buat semua, jadi kuat and jaga perasaan sendiri, dont let other people hurt u, and dont easily letak kepercayaan pada orang, trust the one yg sememangnya takan kecewakan kau.
alright back to ikut kata hati, baru baru ni aku pun ikut kata hati yg memang bebetul hati cakap NO then aku straight say NO. actually, the straight no tu tipu je. along the way to say no tu, ada lah berapa kali tewas (ikut perasaan lah tu). sometimes i just cant resist (ikut perasaan sebab kalau rasa sayang semua kita boleh bagi) and i yes made a mistake. and i repeat the same thing all over again.
actually, it takes time. bila hati kau dah tahu kau tanak then u try lah slowly buang benda yg kau tanak, try to avoid, make a final decision, sebenarnya memang sangat susah, tp tatau lah i believe the Lord knows apa yg ada dalam hati kita and kita selalunya lemah in terms of terus berubah but then He helps me. He slowly tolong up until now. alhamdulillah even tak permudahkan tp at the end tuhan tolong juga. finally semua jadi senang / dipermudahkan. tapi tatau this time when dah lama lama ni baru like aku nampak sebenarnya betul keputusan aku. now rasa lebih tenang. no tears. no hatred. nothing. cam everything back to normal and im more likely to berserah lah pada Allah nak jadi apa kan because now aku dah follow dah my heart. hati aku kata tanak. alhamdulillah. biggest alhamdulillah.
-its just for the mistake i did, i hope that Allah would forgive me): i'll try my best):
okay now. the topic is actually about why u need to stay away from negativity.
you know, when ur heart says something sebenarnya aku yakin benda tu guide kita through something bigger. so when it says WRONG. or NO. then just follow. dont force yourself nak ikut orang lain, nak bahagiakan orang lain, nak bagi semua benda yg boleh bahagiakan orang, nak puaskan hati orang but at the same time hati kau cakap "benda ni tak betul doh" "jangan doh" "ni salah doh" juuuuuuuuuust try lah sometimes percaya. u know what's right and what's wrong. so percaya bila hati kau kata TAK. dont lah like yolo ke apa because im afraid it will lead u to something else. mungkin yes u kena keluar from comfort zone, try and learn new things, discover and explore,.. of course u can but at the same time jaga lah. dont like kau rasa benda tu dah terang terang salah, dah terang terang berdosa yg kau belajar dari kecik, dah sah sah buat parents kecewa, and then kau pun ada pendirian sendiri yg benda tu tak betul but then kau buat jugak kan. (aku cakap pasal diri sendiri). benda tu sebenarnya toxic.
to me negativity ni ada wide and broad definition and opinion memasing. pada aku, avoid negativity bukan actually avoid orang yg ada masalah sosial ke gejala negatif ke apa atau something benda ke apa. in my opinion, stay away from negativity ni actually benda yg halang kau drpd happy. yg bila kau buat kau rasa cam takda datang apa apa, buat kau stress, buat kau tak happy, tak fun, rasa tak betul and rasa bersalah camtu lah lebih kurang. (just my opinion) like toxic.
kita ada kawan yg betul. baik budi pekertinya. menegur kita segala macam hal. guide kita. alhamdulillah. haha;
kita ada kawan yg tak betul, tapi dia tak pernah buat benda yg salah kat kita, dia tolong kita, dia support kita, dia faham kita;
kita ada juga kawan. yang tak betul tapi sama sama tak betul dgn kita, tapi kita rasa lek je sebab kita rasa benda tu ok boleh diterima lagi;
kita ada juga kawan. yang dah lah tak betul, lepas tu paksa kita buat benda tak betul yang memang truly kita tanak buat pun, tapi kita ikutkan sebab kita nak jaga hati kawan, tapi ended up dorong benda lain, lepas tu condemn apa kita buat salah dia betul, tanak faham, lepas tu selfish, lepas tu tanak hargai pula, lepas tu tak support, lepas tu tak respect, lepas tu kita mula lah rasa sedih lah, sentap lah, terasa lah, rasa kecik sangat lah, rasa apa lah semua benda lah sebab contradict. THIS IS ACTUALLY NEGATIVITY. that feeling. u need to get rid of this toxic. that feeling yg buat kau rasa sekecil kecil alam yang kau sebenarnya boleh buat better than tu. when at first u dah rasa benda tu tak betul, benda tu takan jadi betul just try once believe and avoid or get rid of this negativity bila u dah get into it.
because this is the key of ur happiness.
so yah. that's my 10 cent advice. need to stop writing. sorry if ada terasa or apa. this is so nothing to do with orang dah hidup atau meninggal dunia. off. [lunch hour dah. bye]
